What my new BFF Matt showed me how to do

Look what I learned how to do! I know, I'm gay, I just can't help it! Anyone that can teach me HTML is a GOD in my eyes!

So now you can avoid my long, dragged out posts if you want to, or you can make me a very happy blogger and read them all and comment on them and when I get to be a rich and famous blogger, I'll mention you in my acceptance speeches. You can say you knew me before I understood HTML - not that I UNDERSTAND HTML now, Matt just wrote some DAMN fine instructions!

Thanks new BFF!

check out Matt's blog: here

Weekend at the Movies

Friday I rented a couple of movies. Here's my take on those:

Flashbacks of a Fool - with Daniel Craig (the current 007) by Miramax

It's the story of a washed up Hollywood actor who finds his life and his career circling the drain. He gets a call from home (England) informing him that his best childhood mate has died suddenly. In contemplating returning to the English Seaside he fled 25 years earlier, this prodigal son begins to flash back to significant events that led to his hasty departure.

Prominently featured is the music of David Bowie and Brian Ferry. Interesting to see the effects of the psychedelic 70s on rural England. The story is a little slow, but typical of English offerings.

During the flashbacks we learn that the Hollywood actor left his home and his family following a tragedy he blames himself for. You can't help but realize that everything this man has experienced since has been thru a filter of guilt and remorse. It isn't until he courageously returns home to face his guilt that he's allowed to let down those shackles and evolve as a person.

Very good movie. I give it 4 rages

The other rental was titled: Normal - starring Carrie Anne Moss

A multi-faceted story line of a tragic accident involving several people and the fall out that occurs in each of their lives;

The mother of the boy that died

The boy that didn't die

The drunk aging professor that hit them

Each of them is searching for the way back to normal.

I enjoyed this movie. It was interesting to see how each of the players in this story dealt (or didn't deal) with their grief and remorse.

I give this movie 3 rages

I don't recommend watching 2 dark movies on the same night. My dreams were filled with allegories for the grief I am dealing with in my current situation. I needed something to help me recover from this, so on Saturday, I went to see a comedy.

He's Just Not That Into You - starring and all star cast

This movie was hilarious!

OMG! Nothing like having a mirror held up to you to help you see the humor in how ridiculous the human animal is! LOL

The story begins on the playground. It's the usual story, boy meets girl, girls smiles at boy, boy pushes girl down in the dirt, turns and laffs as he runs away...Then mom comes to the aid of girl and perpetrates the first in a never ending string of lies and deceits we women perpetrate on one another. She tells the girl that the only reason the boy pushed her is because he likes her!

OMG! How many times have we heard or said these ridiculous things to one another to try to spare our girlfriend's feelings?

This movie was a crack up! I don't care who you are, you will immediately recognize these women.

There's a little something in this movie for everyone. All factions are represented, even the LGBT.

Super cute exchange: girl tells a gay couple at a party that she's not sure, but she thinks her invite to the party may have implied a little more than "come as a guest". Once again, our protagonist is reading a little more into the object of her affection's actions. The gay guys tell her it's hard to tell, since gay signals are so much less complex. And they demonstrate:"If you want to have sex with someone, you let your eye contact linger for more than three seconds" and they turn and gaze at one another. "One, Two, Three..." and they turn back to her. "Oh, yes, it's definitely on! If on the other hand, you're not into him," and they turn again to gaze at one another, "One, Two," and they dramatically snap back to front. "Oh, Hell no!" lol

Okay, so maybe you gotta see it to get the humor implied in that scene. But I'm new to this reviewing stuff. breaking my teeth in so to speak (or type!)

Anywho, This one is definitely worth the price of admission.

I give it 4.5 rages

Happy viewing!

More on why being 17 sucks

If only there were a bank where you could open up an account for your children and bank some of the lessons you learn from your mistakes. Then you could give your teenager an ATM card of sorts so that they could make withdrawals and there by avoid the traumas and still get the value of the lessons...

Or maybe you could buy bonds of some sort that they could "cash in" when they get in trouble.

Just say no to neck suckers, babe...

I'm Fooked!

How people treat you is their karma, how you react is yours. - Wayne Dyer

I want this one read at my funeral (a long, long time from now!)

I carry your heart with me

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in

my heart) I am never without it (anywhere

I go you go, my dear; and whatever is done

by only me is your doing, my darling)

I fear

no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) I want

no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)

and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows

higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

- Edward Estling Cummings

And if not, at least I still have Hope

Hope is the Thing With Feathers


Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul,
And sings the tune–without the words,
And never stops-at all,


And sweetest in the gale is heard;
And sore must be the storm
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm.


I’ve heard it in the chillest land,
And on the strangest sea;
Yet, never, in extremity,
It asked a crumb of me.


— by Emily Dickinson

So maybe I'll wake up and it'll all be over?

A Dream Within A Dream

Take this kiss upon the brow!

And, in parting from you now,

Thus much let me avow-

You are not wrong, who deem

That my days have been a dream;

Yet if hope has flown away

In a night, or in a day,

In a vision, or in none,

Is it therefore the less gone?

All that we see or seem

Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar

Of a surf-tormented shore,

And I hold within my hand

Grains of the golden sand-

How few! yet how they creep

Through my fingers to the deep,

While I weep- while I weep!

O God! can I not grasp

Them with a tighter clasp?

O God! can I not save

One from the pitiless wave?

Is all that we see or seem

But a dream within a dream?

- Edgar Allan Poe