32 years ago my mom left this world. I still cry like it was yesterday. I hear people tell grieving family members and friends that in time, their grief will subside and they will be able to go on with their lives. I don't think that is always the case. I know it hasn't always been for me. For me, the day to day activities of life have only been a means to distract myself from how awfully alone I feel, how betrayed I feel. Some days I just don't have the strength to pretend it all matters.
It’s been 32 years since God took you away.
I remember it like it was yesterday.
I sat in my classroom learning fractions and verbs,
While those who were with you got to hear your last words.
I was so angry with God I could not understand
How leaving two girls motherless could be part of His plan.
All these years later, and Angie’s with you now too,
I still don’t understand why He chose to take you.
The tears that I cry are the same as they were
I cry for you and I cry for her.
I feel so alone as I sit here and cry
And still I don’t understand why, oh Lord, why?
Note from Author:
This is my annual pity party. I'll feel better on Sunday and get back to business as usual for another 11 1/2 months.
Thanks for listening.
Michele
I am very sorry for your pain. I read once in a book on psychology that the death of one's mother when you are a child is the hardest.
ReplyDeleteThis morning I was talking with my husband about my son-in-law. He died eight years ago and yet I started crying. One thing about love - it never dies.
(Hugs)
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